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bisshhh

I don’t wanna think nor turn into a psycho bissshh! She bothers mee.. 

trust

everybodies talking like they know you

but it ain’t like how I do;

can i be wrong too?

you say you’re king

but you’re just a fool

playing it like you’re cool

looks only last so long

and who knows why I made this song

and stood so strong

fantasizing that we belonged

but i was so wrong

maybe friends was the best idea, all along

please, don’t give me attitude

don’t be so rude

because this ain’t even all about you

but everyone around you

who loves(ed) you

care(s)d for you

now,… try to re-evaluate YOU

God only knows

that you don’t run the show

so you go with the flow

tryna be, part of the crowd

you saying “me me me”

but they saying “we we we”

but as mankind, we forget who died on that tree

so we can be free, you see

you say you’re the best

and there’s no contest;

but it’s all just a dreamy quest

so take a little rest, from this mess

and i’ll show you, Jesus

who freed us. Trust.

healing

is this where the healing begins?

God, I really need your guidance.. I cry for your guidance.

i won’t give up

I’ve been acting how I don’t want to be acting; I’m not who I am so far.. The past weekend monthly’s have been a struggle and I don’t want it to be.. I’ve never seen my body and emotions act up so much; but I won’t let it take the best of me.. Self-Control *notetoself.. 32843437<3

it’s raining..

I’m raining.. I hate being on my period. I don’t like it when people tell me one thing and do the other. I dislike that I feel clingy; I may be manipulating my own mind. I wanna be free from all this emotional thinking… Idk what it is. I need affirmation that my trust isn’t being used or being taken advantaged of. That’s what I’m scared of, but who cares? Things just seem fishy; beating around the bushes.. not answering my questions directly. Laughing because I’m being sarcastic when I’m half and half not sarcastic. 

No! I don’t need a break; I need affirmation. Thank you.

Reminder to self: Think Fruit of the Spirit; Galatians 5:22

Lord, I need to trust you!

the thought of waiting..

takes foreverrr